Sliding SideWays

Early morning sorrow

It’s 12:24am May 22nd 2013. She hung up in me cuz I fail at life and I’ve called her more then 30 times and all I can do is sit here and ball my eyes out. I don’t even want to go to school I’d rather be by myself and be alone as it used it to be. My pain and heart continue to break even more as time goes by. At this point if rather be dead and be forgotten about then talked too. My feelings are drained my blood is thin and my heart is beyond shattered. As I sit here next to my bed crying I realize I’m alone and have no one in this world. I don’t have family I don’t have shit. Not even cars anymore. And the things I do aren’t even appreciated and much rather not be Alive at this point. Honestly I’m deciding whether I want to continue life

Posted 2 days ago

Second Day Part 2

As I slowly walk to my house. I can’t feel nothing but a rush of tears falling down my cheek. Just seeing her ride away as if I wasn’t anyone. Makes me feel even worse then ever before. I kinda wonder how long my pain will last. Am I worth the time? As of now I don’t feel like I’m worth it. I feel so forgotten about and basically pushed away. I just keep feeling even worse and worse. I’m more alone then ever before in life. Feels like your here but just gone. No matter what I do my pain comes back. Feels like these tears seem to fade away but as soon as the emptiness sets in I’m right back to where I started. Have I changed? No of course not i get happy and get easily depressed. The only person I blame is the person in the mirror. Even writing the tears come out more. But it’s nothing that can fix this. Not the sound of music. Not the sound of a race car. But the feeling of having your heart mind and soul…but for now I continue to walk until I fully fade away….

Posted 2 days ago

Day 2

Second day sits in…woke up feeling even worse then ever. I didn’t get any sleep so much going through my head and a huge head ache. Woke up in the middle of the night just thinking. What did I do to deserve this??? Had no idea my actions would take it this far. Ik what I did wrong but never could I take it back so I make tumblr my basic diary to write out my emotions. Might not even go to next period just knowing what I could see or let my mind drive me nuts. I see happy couples everywhere and it kills me knowing I might never have a chance at it. It used to be that automotive was escape. I get brake job and don’t even have the will to even remove the tire. Everyday to see you pretend like everything’s ok hurts more then you’ll never know. Ppl all of a sudden want to talk to you that haven’t talk to you in the entire school year…and now the last week everyone’s opening they’re mouth. The pain on my heart probably won’t get relieved until ik your back into my arms again. It crushes me even more just knowing of that chance won’t happen. I walk the line of hurt knowing there’s no here to save me.

Posted 3 days ago

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slidin-sideways:

It must be so easy forgetting about the one you love. Regardless of how many years or months you’ve been together. I’m just now learning the one I love is leaving me. My heart hurts and I try my best to do everything but it doesn’t work. Even the people she used to talk to,are talking to her. I…

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The end

It must be so easy forgetting about the one you love. Regardless of how many years or months you’ve been together. I’m just now learning the one I love is leaving me. My heart hurts and I try my best to do everything but it doesn’t work. Even the people she used to talk to,are talking to her. I feel alone used up an thrown away. I’ve apologized for my wrong doings and I want to prove to her I’m worth it but am I really worth it.seems like 2 days ago I was the one and she was my love and now I’m nothing to her but a horrible memory. I continue to walk around each day moving along to see what’s up with me and why do I deserve the hurt. But maybe I deserve it. Maybe I don’t. But it seems like every time she’s gone I miss her even more. Even in class it feels like I’m just another stranger,even In the halls I’m just a shallow lake of nothing. I used to be the sun rise and now I’m just that one star you’ll see for a moment and will never see again. Minute by minute i can’t seem to get her off my mind. I don’t wanna lose her. She’s better then all these girls I have ever been with and al though she’s my first love I want her to be my only one. She’s going to college an hr and a half away but I wanted us to be the exception where we stay together forever. I might fuck up and ruin a lot of things we all make mistakes we can’t to back. I’ve apologized for more then enough and can’t get her back. I literally cried in my English class to my best friend and she even knows the love I have is real. But it sucks just being a dandelion in a field of millions of them. It hurts more then you’ll even know to be easily forgotten about and not even considered in life anymore. No matter how much I try or do I just want her back in my arms. But is it my arms that she’s going to head back too?? does she have someone else to fall back on and I sit here by myself in my sociology class writing this…wondering is this the end or am i just a waste a space as I’ve always been or does someone want me? Is it me? Does she want me? Who knows? But anything i do might as well be shoved away. It must be so easy to break up with someone and not feel remorse for it. Except for me I’d do anything for my relationship or my first love but does she really know? Am I worth being together with you? Am I even worth love? No matter how bad I messed up…will I get you back? Will I get another chance? Am I even in your head? Was I ever truly yours to keep? So many unanswered questions and answers I truly believe I won’t receive….but yet I’ve never lost hope in love. Never have I stopped loving this girl, never stopped caring,never stopped enjoying the amazing memories from the last year and 2 months..id love to continue the love…but will she?(sorry for all the mistakes in this note I highly doubt anyone will read it anyway so it doesn’t matter) ill just have to try my best and accept the help I was given..I was told by my best friend some advice and this exactly what he said to me this morning “if you love her do everything it takes to make sure she knows that you love her, make sure she’s your number 1, make sure through out everything your there for her, and do anything In your will and power to get her back in your arms” I’ll talk to you later tonight tumblr to talk more….

Posted 4 days ago

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motoriginal:

5lander submitted: My ride: 1993 Toyota Supra… loaded with goodies and essentials to make driving that much more enjoyable.

Submission Sunday

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69 COPO ZL1 427 Camaro.

COPO stood for Central Office Production Order.

Fed Gibb, a Chevy dealer, wanted to be competitive in NHRA Super Stock so he ordered 50 Camaros with 427, all aluminum block (with steel liners) and aluminum heads. The ZL1 427 was designed for the Chaparral Can-Am race cars. 50 were ordered to meet NHRA’s requirement.

The 50 had no consoles or arm rest, both 4 speed or automatics could be ordered. Another 19 were eventually ordered, but they had consoles and armrests.

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Damn. Again.

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engine-lock:

Import Tuner Car Feature:

1995 Nissan 240SX

those seats are so fucking rad

I need that seat and interior pattern!

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65 Pontiac Grand Prix with 8 lug wheels

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downshiftaus:

Another killer car from the @forge_wheels team. Ben’s Evo looks amazing, always had such a soft spot for them. #mitsubishi #evolution #evo #rally #awd #4g63 #turbo #forgewheels #allstars #blackonblack #stillkindawishiboughtone #loveit #jdm #import #downshiftaus

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